●just for sharing @ Tuesday, December 1, 2009 ●

爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜，
总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担，
你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、恋著你，
不论做什么事情，只要能一起，就是好的，
但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深，
你开始发现了对方的缺点，於是问题一个接著一个发生，
你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，
有人说爱情就像在捡石头，总想捡到一个适合自己的，
但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？
她适合你，那你又适合她吗?
其实，爱情就像磨石子一样，
或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么的满意，
但是记住人是有弹性的，很多事情是可以改变的，
只要你有心、有勇气，
与其到处去捡未知的石头，还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨，
你开始磨了吗？

很多人以为是因为感情淡了，所以人才会变得懒惰。
错！其实是人先被惰性征服，所以感情才会变淡的。

*在某个聚餐的场合, 有人提议多吃点虾子对身体好，这时候有个中年男人忽然说「十年前，当我老婆还是我的女朋友的时候，她说要吃十只虾，我就剥二十只给她！现在，如果她要我帮她剥虾壳，开玩笑！我连帮她脱衣服都没兴趣了，还剥虾壳咧！

*听到了吗？明白了吗？难怪越来越多人只想要谈一辈子的恋爱，却迟迟不肯走入婚姻。因为，婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。如果每个人都
懒得讲话、
懒得倾听、
懒得制造惊喜、
懒得温柔体贴，
那么夫妻或是情人之间，又怎么会不渐行渐远渐无声呢？
所以请记住：有活力的爱情，是需要适度殷勤灌溉的，谈恋爱，更是不可以偷懒的喔！

*有一对情侣，相约下班後去用餐、逛街，可是女孩因为公司会议而延误了，当她冒著雨赶到的时候已经迟到了30多分钟，他的男朋友很不高兴的说：你每次都这样，现在我甚么心情也没了，我以後再也不会等你了！刹那间，女孩终於决堤崩溃了，她心里在想：或许，他们再也没有未来了

*同样的在同一个地点，另一对情侣也面临同样的处境；女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头，他的男朋友说：我想你一定忙坏了吧！接著他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水，并且脱去外套盖在女孩身上，此刻，女孩流泪了, 但是流过她脸颊的泪却是温馨的。

你体会到了吗？其实爱、恨往往只是在我们的一念之间！爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时，很多事可能只是在於你心境的转变罢了！懂了吗？当有个人爱上你，而你也觉得他不错, 那并不代表你会选择他。我们总说：我要找一个你很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，你可能无法回答他，因为你自己也不知道。没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。可是後来，当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的。或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，但是你有没有想过在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，只是你没发觉而已呢？所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧！他或许已经等你很久喽！

当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。所有的期待和希望都只有七八分；剩下两三分用来爱自己。如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压力，让彼此喘不过气来，完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。所以请记住，喝酒不要超过六分醉，吃饭不要超过七分饱，爱一个人不要超过八分那天朋友问我：到底该怎么做才算是爱一个人呢？我笑著跟他说：其实每个人的爱情观都不一样，说对了叫开导，但就怕说错反倒变成误导。那就糟糕了！如果你也正在为爱迷惘，或许下面这段话可以给你一些启示：

爱一个人，
要了解，也要开解；
要道歉，也要道谢；
要认错，也要改错；
要体贴，也要体谅；
是接受，而不是忍受；
是宽容，而不是纵容；
是支持，而不是支配；
是慰问，而不是质问；
是倾诉，而不是控诉；
是难忘，而不是遗忘；
是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
是为对方默默祈求，而不是向对方诸多要求；
可以浪漫，但不要浪费；
可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手

LIVE your FULLESTLAUGH your HARDESTLOVE your DEEPEST

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最近怎么了...
怎么又历史重演的..
怎么两个人说的话，一模一样...
说又怕被嫌烦，小气，想太多，某某的，不说又不是的..
哪来的信心? 哪来的信任?
害怕，担心，他给的一切，尤其是承诺...
结果每一次都因为我，
都把小事翻成大事又复杂...

都是自己，一切都是自己..
应得吧?
心疼..
对不起，把自己的心理问题拖累了你..
不要怪你自己对我不够好，不够细心..
你已经尽力的给我最好的了，
是我自己在还没得到允许，在你不知觉，还没心理准备之下，
完完全全地依赖了你...

或许你累了，
从你口中说的某些话，
让我觉得你累了，
我不怪你，我理解...
你没必要那么做，我也没权力要求你那样...
自找的吧?! 已经恨自己到极点了...
阴影，心结，我自己解决，需要的是时间，但何时呢?

Don't ever let whatever promises you made to me be a burden for you and affect whatever decisions you're about to make.. =]

爱情会天亮也一定会黑...

留下了眼泪却不曾留下智慧的我

LIVE your FULLESTLAUGH your HARDESTLOVE your DEEPEST

●taggie TAg taG... @ Wednesday, November 18, 2009 ●

Tag.

Things You Didn't Know About Me Until You Read This:

1. What Color Is Your Toothbrush:

Red.

2. Name One Person That Made You Smile Today:

my DeaREst BenJI <3.

3. What were you doing at 8 AM?:

woke up to sleep next to babY RenEe.

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?:

webCAm-ing wif Darling.

5. What is your favorite candy?:

icy-Mint and sourisH..

6. What's the last thing you said out loud?:
"fuck la!"

7. What is the best ice cream flavor?:

chocolate, choco and chocolaTE~ ^^

8. What was the last thing you had to drink?:

soya milk Drink...

9. What is the longest you have gone without sleeping?:

almost a day.

10. Have you ever made a promise you'd die to keep?:

yeah i did...

11. The last sporting event you watched?:

the olympic?

12. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?:

Ori flavor luhh

13. Who is the last person you sent a message to on Facebook?:

forgot~

14. Ever go cam...ping?:

owhhh yeahh.. hate it...

15. Do you take vitamins daily?:

nah~....

16. Do you go to church every Sunday?:

..........nope

17. Do you drink your soda with a straw?:

yeap xp.....

18. What did your last text message say?:

yea..ok..just joking la...muaxx...

19. Where is your dad?:

at home sleeping~.

20. Look to your left, what do you see?:

uhm..my bag, my closit, my dressing table with stuffs on it...

21. What color is your watch?:

i dont wear one.

22. I think this one is empty...:

o.0??

23. What did you do yesterday?:

skipped class..went movie wif dear and dear's frens?.

24. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?:

head in for sure but i do hit the drive thru at times (:

25. What is your favorite number?:

5, 7, 24

26. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?

baby Benjamin

27. Any plans today?:

yeah, hop on to bed when i'm done with this..Zzz.

28. Biggest annoyance in your life right now?:

none..its the past anyways... (:

29. Last song listened to?:

truly madly deeply =]

30. Can you say the alphabet backwards?:

I don't think so~ -.-

31. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?:

i only buy shoes if they're my favourite..

32. Are you jealous of anyone?:

y should i? =="

33. Is anyone jealous of you:

and why should they?

34. Do you love anyone?:

i love everyone especially Benji..<3..(:

35. What do you usually do during the day?:

weekdays-college and weekends outing with my darling xp

36. Do you hate anyone that you know right now?:

errr..don't think so~

37. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?:

i used lots of words daily~

38. Meaning of life?:

living blessed and happily

39. Do you like cats?:

yeap ^^

40. Have you ever been to Six Flags?:

should i know what that is?

41. How did you get your worst scar?:

3 stitches on my head~

42. Last big talk?:

er....

43.Last CD played?:

no idea~

44. Last bubble bath?:

never had one~

45. Last meal?:

dinner at 9 (:

46. Have you ever dated someone twice?:

yeap. ^^

47. Gone on a date?:

yeap.

48. Have you ever fallen in love?:

falling in love deeeeep deep xD ...

49. Have you ever lost someone?:

everybody lost somebody.

50. Have you ever slept until 1PM?:

until 2 pm...

51. Have you met a famous person?:

never get a chance =[

52. Do you have at least 2 people you can tell pretty much anything to?:

yeap.

53. List three favorite colors/shades:

black, white, any colour related to REd..^^

54. Laughed until you cried?:

just tears

55. Went behind your parents back?:

evrybody did..xp..

56. Opinion on gay marriage?:

nothing wrong with that..

57. Lowering the drinking age?:

doesn't really affect me..

58. Who are the best huggers that you know?:

of course from my baby Benjamin <3

59. Do you believe in love at first sight?:

i believed and it happened^^

60. Is there something you want to tell someone?:

sorry for the wrong things that i've caused ...

61. Would you kiss any of your facebook friends?:

my jimuis? of course..xp

62. How Many Kids Do You Want To Have?:

1 girl and 1 boy.

63. Do you want to change your name?:

nah...i love my name.. ^^

64. Last time you saw your father?:

5 hours ago..

65.he's not here?:

So?

66. How old are you?:

18.

67. What were you doing at midnight last night?:

editing post -.-.

68. What is your favorite thing in your room?:

closet. laptop. mybed !

Tag 25 people to do the same thing.: i would like to tag. allll of my FRIENDS.: tag urself. (:: TQ!

LIVE your FULLESTLAUGH your HARDESTLOVE your DEEPEST

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i actually skipped class today..shh..i'll be real dead meat if my parents found out..i've been skipping classes like evry now and then? damn it, i just dont feel like going to any of those classes, programming, statistics, moral..sigh..finals coming..fucked up..real damn fucked up..i hate my course so much right now just feel like pulling out at any sec..IT just aint the THING for me..i have got no IT brain..damn..

so went movie [2012] wif Dear Dear..Glenna-Jia-Alvin-K5-Bernard..nice one..though the movie was heck of a long one..2 Hours + diu...even my back sored..Zzz..after movie went "dinner" at 5.30 at old town..xp...Den evryone just head back ltr on..

got hme and after cleaning up, straight to bed for 1 and half hour..Zzz..lack of sleeps these few days..assignments, assignments and assignments..tmd...woke up and went mamak-ing wif sis..sigh and then..for shit and crappy reasons, both of US, got emo and he just hang up and went to sleep..Zzz..as for me, end up doing up all my piled up mountain high tutorials, and here i am blogging...couldn't sleep and don't feel like sleeping...Damn..GUYS literally think the same way, and say and do almost the same thing..i guess its all the same..though am used to it, its just so heartbreaking when you give evrything in and it just didn't worked out right..and YES, i am FAN, SENSITIVE, XIAO QI and i'm not being denial...love you anyways, and if you happened to read my blog, don't have to mention bout anything..just leave things the way it is...

Just what promises and commitments are all about..

[cheers]
baby.C
xoxo

LIVE your FULLESTLAUGH your HARDESTLOVE your DEEPEST

●whats been happening lately~ @ Monday, November 16, 2009 ●

loads of shits and craps happened recently~ and am still haunted by it though, those words, just kept spinning in my mind..am i taking things negatively? am i being the drama queenie? or am i just being afraid and scared that history is repeating itself and i'm not strong enough to deal with it..or in conclusion, i'm PMS-ing..

went lagoon with Dear-Glenna-Jia-ALvin-K5...had fun and i seriously enjoyed it..but my body muscles are aching the hell out of me..T.T sob..and i'm soooo happy that i'm finally done with the stupid Effin' programming Assignment that i've been working on for almost a week with insufficient sleep, migraine, ....Now there's two more assignments to be done and i'm having my finals in like what, two weeks? All i can say is i'm doomed and am seriously feeling fucked up with my statistics and programming, can't even understand a single shit bout probability, looping, and what not..and damn i could seriously bang my head hard onto the wall..and Finally, i've got back all mid-term papers..
Account -49
Microeconomics-48
statistic-48
Moral -47
Programming -40 [EMO die me]

felt so much like a Looser right now..lots of confusions, lots of words repeating itself in my mind..lots of craps..what the heck..people say things will eventually worked out itself in the right way if we remained positively..well, proven that it doesn't goes that way always does it..Life just has to be so darn complicated huh..
sleepless baby.C

LIVE your FULLESTLAUGH your HARDESTLOVE your DEEPEST

● @ Monday, November 9, 2009 ●

某些话
好心酸
仿佛刀
割在心，
反反复复地
在同一个地方
轻轻地割
却无可奈何
只好藏在笑容里
因为知道如果说出了
会有理论，解释等等
解释就真的能抚平心里吗?
反而，只会多一个心结
好希望只是自己想太多

害怕..
害怕接受承诺，却要求
犯贱，还是矛盾?
没有什么是肯定的
所以喜欢一天的过一天
却希望得到永恒

为什么同样的事情总是发生
为什么全部都一样?!

不是最温柔，最主动，
最漂亮，最会表达内涵，
为什么不能用心了解?
心疼，关心，不主动
为什么就不能接受一切?
粗鲁，不温柔
为什么要和其他女生做比较?
不喜欢假装，也讨厌伪装
只想做原来的我，好吗?

LIVE your FULLESTLAUGH your HARDESTLOVE your DEEPEST

●i'm happy @ Thursday, November 5, 2009 ●

time really flies fast..in just a nick of time, Ben and Cheryl have been together for 9 days~..lol..all i can say is, i'm happy with you, i feel secure, comfort and everything else...thanks for being there whenever i'm down, and accompanying me go through those dark and hard times though its unfair at times..i'm a girl and i speak vulgar language, i know its rude and i know you're trying to change that..xp..but its gonna be like super dupper hard..i know i can be demanding at times, i mumbled and i'm not the sweetest talker ever, not the most gentle decent GF ever, not the most initiative GF ever, and the WEIRDEST GIRL ever? lol..mayb thats y u're attracted? have no idea..o.O

btw, theres a fucking disgusting piece of shit crawling in my room just now--a mighty COCKROACH...incoming missle----->knn you nigga, crawl into my room for fucks ah..ma cao hai fuck face pukima son of a gun motherfucker you low-life shit crappie asshole..Zzz

anyways, baby cheryL loves Ben muuuuuch much yeah! xD...

love,
baby.C
xoxo

LIVE your FULLESTLAUGH your HARDESTLOVE your DEEPEST